Well, the sad part of being in this area is that my doctors are idiots. It's funny I pay them and then educate them. The doctor I was sent to, told me to take these antibiotics and THEN go get a full panel done (which most people are aware that the antibiotics can really jack up your results). This doctor, per her website, claims to specialize in the diagnosis and treatment of Lyme Disease - and then looked at my file, looked at the pictures and left the room. I could hear her asking someone else about Lyme!

The only thing she was able to do without leaving the room and asking someone was to identify the EM rash (which I had pictures of), and as you know, it shouldn't take a genius to identify a bullseye rash when it looks like a bullseye.

I didn't have my full set of labs done and noted several tests she didn't order. I haven't been tested for PD and several other things. A while ago they tossed around the idea of MS but I was like 25 at the time and it was the same doctor who wanted to treat my seizure migraines with botox (yay california).

I had sensory integration testing as young teen and they pretty much chalked up my FMS's weren't all that great and I had hand tremors (i forgot the name, but it actually has one) - however, my dad has those hand tremors, too and he was tested for PD and he's OK (short of that cancer issue he's ok, I mean).

I'm trying to make myself savvy but I am very cautious doing that because I don't want to end up forcing myself into this paranoid state and starting to self-diagnose. I seem to not accept this whole Lyme thing.

I know I sound crazy, but I just think there's something else doing on. I know I've had weird positive results, but plenty of crap can cause false positives and negatives.

I'm babbling again, aren't I? I swear, I am having one of those days where I just want to talk and talk and talk and I'm sitting here and my dogs wont even hang out with me (perhaps it's the bad haircut I gave Fozzy).

Oh, but yeah. My doctor mentioned that P-word you used. I think theres another term for it. What's weird, is the more testing she did to try and force me to focus (I also can't focus most of the time) she'd notice weird stuff going on (she said it was absence seizures but I think it was just something very mild). The way she explained it, is my brain has good days and bad days. One day it will work enough to let my eyes focus, one day it takes a sick day and my eyes wont focus. I did an extensive test run with her (3-4 days in a row and she only charged for 1, wooo!!) and my eyes performed differently every day.

I'm a lemon

In other news, I have a zit so big on my chin the right side of my chin is actually swollen.

Now that's hardcore right there.