I'd like to add my willingness to listen to that of Chemar. I too don't have answers for you. I can only imagine myself in that condition and it is a difficult answer. Sometimes we wish that all our suffering could be brought to an abrupt end, but the life force is too strong and we remain in this world. Please know that someone will answer if you will post so that we recognize your need. I always stop to "talk" to someone if they need help. I don't always have the answer but I am still here.
Billye