((((kimmydawn))))) it's great that you share a special bond with your brother. it really helps more than most people can fathom. i know this because i tried to kill myself over 13 years ago. somehow, it failed and i lived. i have not been suicidal ever since, even when i have been going through the worst depression i have ever experienced. despite the advances in medicine, there's no easy way in finding the right treatment for treatment-resistant depression. but, i hold on because i share a bond with my dog and 3 cats as well as my hubby. it keeps me going even when i'm feeling so hopeless. i know, it's been rough with having to help your brother and caring for family. i just wanted you to know that you have my support, too. wishing you and your brother the best.