You know I was thinking about how your doc treated you and how your psych you said has no idea what to do with you. Anyhow I bring this up as I have had the same issues because I was a hard case and I think there words to me was out of there frustration. I think when docs of any kind don't know what to do with us or were harder then average to figure out they turn it on to us rather then pushing a little harder. I have had many docs in my anorexia recovery give up on me and it made me feel lost and like a "freak" but when I found the right docs that were willing to give me hope and work harder then they may for some did I recover. I tell you this story so you don't give up. Not all docs are for everyone. If your current is not helping then try a new one. It may give you the hope and answers your looking for. Good luck.