I sure know how your feeling about this day. I too got hurt by a doctor, and on my anniversary I have those same thoughts.

Wish I could go back to the day before and change what I did. Plus all those feelings come rushing back. It is kinda weird. I guess it is because I know exactly why, how, and when it all went wrong, and remember every detail leading up to the decision to go to the ER.

This has been one of the hardest things for me to just accept. I dont really think I will ever come to grips with the idea of how it all went wrong, but hopefully someday the feelings will subside enough to where it doesnt over run our thoughts to much.

Hope it didnt mess with ya too bad, and remember got ya in my prayers always