I understand what everyone is saying. I just wanted to toss my 2 cents in. I can live with pain. what I can't live with is the quality of life. Yesterday was my birthday, and I drove it home even more, that this isn't a trial run of life. this is it. I don't want to have to stop doing the things that make my life worth living. If something I'm going to try (scs) makes things worts, than that is a chance I'll take. If I thought Ketamine would work for me, I would probably try it. It can't kill more brain cells than all the meds I'm on. Of course, I would want the odds in my favor. I wish there was a magic pill that we could all take that would make us all better. As there isn't, I can only hope that each one of us can keep our humor going, our minds working, and our bodies in as little pain as we can. I hope this doesn't sound depressing, because i don't mean it to. it's really just the way I'm seeing things this morning. Of course, it could all change tonight. LOL.

Mary