Yesterday, I went grocery shopping, fun fun fun. Then I had an appt. for Orientation for Therapy, you have to go to it, then the assessment appt. next week. It's thru where I see my p-doc. I already did the orientation awhile ago, but was supposed to go to long term therapy and that didn't work out.

So, now I will be going where I orginally was and they will do the long term therapy. Next week I have my DV case mgr one day, then one day I see my p-doc in the AM and the assessment with the therapist there in the afternoon.

My Vet comes to the house on Monday to give one of my dogs her boosters, because he didn't get to it, after my baby Savannah went to Rainbow bridge.

The week after that I have my bone denisty and mammogram, plus my DV case mgr. The therapy will be every other week. The week after that back to the dermotologist for the alopecia shots in my scalp.

I have a birthday in there someplace that I would like to forget, which will be very quiet anyway and sad.

Then COURT the 16th, STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

I have been lax on housecleaning, like dusting and vacuuming, no big deal, but I have too many headaches. Last night I had a killer one that went into my neck.

My mom has a few appt's. coming up too. One is with the surgeon, to check the right artery in her neck again, to see if she will need the surgery or not.
She is smoking again, so I am worried. Last time (they go by numbers) she was something like a 3 and if she had been a 4, they would need to operate.

Oh, I pray she doesn't need surgery, I don't think I could handle that. She isn't acting like she wants to live. She sleeps a lot, doesn't get dressed unless we go out for something. There is nothing I can do to change her.
She has bouts of drinking, which last night I just took the bottle and hid it. I know I shouldn't have it in the house, but I can't have her driving either and thats what she would do, or make my life hell. I tell her I will call 911 because of her meds she is on. She is on a anti-depressent too.

I came home twice to find her in my bathroom, she had taken one of my pain pills, she didn't have her glasses on and wanted something to sleep. OMG

She can't sleep at night, cause she sleeps way too much during the day on and off. Usually, she would stay up late and watch TV. I don't know.

I don't know what to do, but if this keeps up, I will have to figure something out. Maybe she needs to go back to a place for depression for awhile. God, I should be in the looney bin forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am up everyday at 4am or 5am, it's not the dogs anymore either, it's me. My Savannah used to be the one to wake everyone up.

I should get my results tomorrow hopefully, that's what they said at the mri/cat scan place, so I will call my PCP if I don't hear. I guess no news is good news, and it all is from stress and the post concussion syndrome. Lets hope thats all it is. Although I have a feeling one of my disc's in my neck above or below my fusion may be causing pain.

Okay, I am really rambling on, but this place is my outlet, support, etc.

Thanks for listening. Hugs, Nikko...........