Hi Seams:

Wow, you certainly have a lot of stuff going on in your life, don't you!!!

About your daughter. You are making the right call. Nothing you can do about it. It is totally up to her. And if you make it YOUR problem, your PN will flare. Believe me, I speak from experience.

We gals, moms, whatever we are.....well, we have to focus on our health because no one else is going to do this.

So rent the room (good move on your part), let go of your daughter's drug problem (you can't do a darn thing about this can you?), and put all your efforts on thinking about what can de-stress you.

I like to just take long walks (did this yesterday) and I noticed all the beautiful flowers, daisies, all the beautiful scenery and trees that are abundant this time of year. I just drank it all in and appreciated all of it.

Then I told myself "okay, you are having a good day, tomorrow morning when Alan gets off of work, you'll meet up at Dunkin Donuts. You'll be dressed in a nice pretty skirt and blouse and put on your makeup". Talking to myself like that de-stresses me.

So you'll never believe what happened this morning when I got all dressed up and met up with him at Dunkin!!!! Alan is a nighttime security guard at a condominum construction site in New York City. You would think that for what they pay him, it would be a pretty boring job right?? Don't think so!!!

He meets up with me, we sit down and he goes. "I showed up at work at midnight, went up to the second floor bathroom (the condominiums are almost finished), he goes to check each floor. He walked into the bathroom and there was a body on the floor. Alan checks for the pulse, and he's going "buddy, buddy are you alright??" No response. Alan calls the police, they show up, turns out the guy was dead drunk and they hauled him off".

They they let him go, and two hours later, he breaks back in. Alan caught him. I'm listening to this and I'm trying not to get stressed and I'm trying to enjoy my Dunkin Donuts Coffee but all I'm imagining is guys are breaking in to the place where my husband is a security guard and this is happening all night long.

So I can't even have a stupid cup of coffee with Alan without him telling me he's catching burglars in the middle of the night.

I told him "what's going to happen tonight??" He goes "if the guy comes back, I'll be ready for him." I said 'Alan, they don't pay you enough money to catch burglars and robbers. He thinks he's Rocky and he says 'I can take care of myself" All this, and he has a foot ulcer and he's wearing the cam-walker.

I told him "hit him in the nuts with your cam walker shot boot". He said "you know that's not a bad idea".

oh my god.

So you take care and don't stress. There's plenty of that to go around.

lol

Melody