yes it's painful *says my dad* but think about what it's going to buy you instead. You are going to get movement and some strength back. And that's a big deal. Very exciting if you think about it.

(I am trying to help you keep positive. Is it working yet? LOL)

Hang in there honey. Waiting and anticipation is the very most worst part of life if you are anxiety prone. HANG ON!

And your birthday IS a big deal. Cause you are worth it.