In December 2005 my girlfriend spent 8 days in a diabetic coma. She got there via extraordinarily self-destructive behavior.
She's ok now working and doing whatever. She has no idea of what she put her family and friends through.

I don't like that I know a lot about comas and ICU floors. I don't like that I know that comas, for ex, are nothing like people see on TV and that people can be in pain even though they are in a coma. I don't like knowing about how many drs of different specialities get called in to see what bodily systems are still working and which are shutting down and/or coming back up.

I need to change my karma or change my friends. I think that karma is hard to change.

Today was a weird day at work. I felt all alone.
Even though I ordinarily would not see my work friend because we work different hours and different days, I felt strange being in the office knowing he is in hospital.

Mari