you wouldn't want to foster a kitty cat or dog would you?
I know that is far out and it took me guts to write it
also is there a grieving group you can join? that isn't far out and maybe soothing and possibly a way to meet people and build powerful relationships.
I guess I don't think you should volunteer your services now to tutor a child or other volunteer work. You need to be nurtured. I found when a very close friend died after a lengthy bout with leukemia I read books on death and dying and found some comfort in them.
Hugs
Bobby