I am from the TOS and RSD forum. I was on the old braintalk from 98 on until I came to this one near the beginning.

I won't even go into my medical history. Too much, too long and too long going on.

I've delt with suicdial tendencies ever since childhood. I have major depression, PTSD, Panic attacks and anxiety attacks, and other phobias. I don't leave the house much. My life exist of Drs. and my family coming over.

I have a daughter, Susan, and 2 Grandson's, Dustin and Devin. They keep me going. I also have a great son-in-law and 2 great step-kids, along with a wonderful PCP who is also my friend for the last 16+ years. I lost my husband of 34+ years in Nov. of last year so this has been the hardest time I have ever went through.

I have a VNS in me that is doing nothing for depression so far. It has been in since April. It's giving me a lot of medical issues from being in also.

As far as suicidal thoughts, they are always there and I guess always will be. I am in councelling. Have been for over 8 years. That helps keep me going.

I wanted to introduce myself to all of you. My worst medical problems are the RSD, MS, Fibro, Interstital Cystitis, and of course the depression. All of the others fall along the wayside until one of them rear their ugly heads.

I can relate to a lot of you and what you are living with.

Ada

I also wanted to say that I am a Coloradoian that was born and raised in Ky.