Hi Ada
It always seems weird to say "welcome" to a Suicide Survivor forum... but for what its worth, it is well intentioned.
As a seasoned Braintalk member - I know you know this:
You've found a safe haven.

I'm so sorry you're suffering.
I'm here in this forum because I am a survivor. I have had suicidal thoughts but not acted on them. I am bipolar and medicated. For the most part, the depression is in remission because I made some huge life changes.
I have lost close relatives to suicide.

And must say goodbye for now as I'm rusing thru this... take care and we'll talk soon


Addy