thank you for your words of encouragement. I know this is what I want, but there is just a part of me that is scared. I will be so ok tomorrow. My daughter and her roommate are leaving to go back to Rutgers today, so I will have time to just sit and relax once they are gone. My other daughter who is going to VCU in Richmond will be up here tomorrow nite to stay with me for a few days. that way hubby can save some of his leave for when I get the perm. unit. doc said that they will removed the leads from the trial. and then wait about 3 weeks or so for the back to heal and to make sure there wasn't an infection, then they would put the perm on in. I was hoping that the trial would come out and the perm one in on the same day. I guess my insurance required more paper work after the trial come out. Oh well, I guess that is the way it will be. still a little scared tho....

Mary