Oh my dear Julie:
What stuff you have had on your shoulders, you poor thing. And your husband really shouldn't laugh at you. It sounds like nervous laughter because he just might be as afraid as you. Lots of kids to worry about also. Do you have parents?? Can they help out in these troubled times you are going though??
This is a very friendly board and someone will come along and give you some good advice. I just wanted to welcome you, say hi and give you a hug.
Take care, and keep reading. Someone will post after me.
Melody