It sounds like you have had a 10 months (((Xienite))) beyond me and miss Michael something too awful for me to begin to understand.
I wonder what Michael would want for you to do now. Do you have children?
Oh, I wish any close members of your family could help you now.
Please talk to us and let us know how things are going and you are feeling. Maybe if you talk to us you won't feel so alone. We sure care about you.