Right now I'd vote for the motor problems. I don't feel I have any depression, although people including my nerologist keep asking me if I am. I'm more frustrated with myself than anything because of my declining mobility. I was an extremely active person prior to this, and the lack of coordination makes me feel like I'm a brainless twit. My hands and arms do stupid things like hesitating and trembling when the movements should be smooth. From a musical standpoint, this spells disaster for anything I attempt to play.

Even though I didn't make music my career, it's been in my life more than anything else. So having this being taken away is like having my soul being eaten by a monster. So depressed, perhaps I am and I don't realize it. Discouraged yes. I can say that's what I am at least right now.

John