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Join Date: Sep 2006
Posts: 321
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Join Date: Sep 2006
Posts: 321
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Now and later.
At this moment, in spite of walking like a drunk and having all over tremor when excited or upset or cold, etc etc, and in spite of my wonky balance, I prefer to keep the motor symptoms because I know what they are. I would dearly love to shed them all and to walk again the way I walked before PD, to eat soup with confidence again, to have my balance back.
But if I would have to give up my short term memory, to give up the mind that makes me me, to lose my happiness to depression in return for physical restoration, it is not worth it, the sacrifice is too large.
The non motor symptoms are sneaky, hidden, frightening. They attack and wound your whole being from the inside.
But later on, if my motor symptoms become paralyzing, I may change my mind.
Which motor symptom would I most like to get rid of.....hard choice, but I choose walking. It has been so long since I could walk well, it would be fantastic to get that back.
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