Bamboo - please listen, we hear you loud and clear. Don't attempt it.

I have been there, done that, more than once. It is not the answer.

You need to seek a different p-doc and/or hospitalization until they can get your meds under control. Then you will feel so much better and have the will to go on like a new person.

Please believe me, please.......Call a hotline, call a friend, call 911, just don't sit alone thinking on this. There is help out there.

Please check in.

Hugs, Nikko