thank you- yes i am upset, i has been a very bad year, but wha else is new, it seems like nothing ever good happens, all my life since i was 16 i have had nothing but heart ache and disbare, but hay i quess that is the why god decided my role in life would be. anyway the point i was trying to make was everyone has ups ande downs but we still have to go on, if not for ourselfs then for everyone else, i know it is hard, but who know what will happen next, geez maybe one of else will win the lottery, keep your head up and continue hard yes but hey someone has too- well off to work for me soon- joy cann't wait as i know i will be cfrawling home once again