showers can seem too stimulating so yes i have trouble with them too. If I don't think about it and just do it it is easier.
I am so sorry you are feeling crappy...if it is any consolation I do too. I am ready to jump out of my skin and flipping in and out of depression.
I am certain you will feel better. You have been under so much pressure and we bipolars aren't famous for handling pressure or change. The guy from work had to have really shaken you up a lot and it takes awhile even if the situation is resolved to calm down from that.
I hope you can take some more time away from work.
Bobby