I hope you all feel less lonely, now that you know you are not alone. You will get better e-head, your emotions are probably pretty complicated. You were likely in a state of denial alot and turfing all your feelings and now they are flooding in on you. Perhaps you were not mature or wise enough to deal with them and now you may be more aware of them. Who knows, but they are real and the depression or dissapointment you feel now will also get better in time. Perhaps walking around with a helmit on will make you feel better as you heal. My son also had a vision issue awhile ago with fatigue. Get a good night sleep and veg out a little, this will make you feel better. Take care!