Hi Judy
I can't help with your issues, sorry. But, I want to offer my support and wish you some relief, sooner rather then later.

Regarding your pup loss. Time really is the only comfort. I remember not being able to look and Brandi's ash box. Eventually I could put a hand on the top and felt a bit better. She had cancer and black leisons on her face, it really wasn't good for her in the end. The last night before she was to be put down, I had put a blanket around her and held her up so she could breathe better. She is definitely in a better place.

Hugs to you.