Daniella,

Be careful with docs and money....there is always some one who has a cure where others fail...

This is just a possibility, but you are quite young, and maybe, your body can heal itself very effectively given time, a good diet, reasonable exercise such as walking or biking and some very light weight work under the supervision of a good doc, PT, dietician, therapist and nurse. (Not that you are not gonna hurt during it and even after it.) Sometimes it is better to leave well enough alone rather than risk getting worse.

Is there some local support group for people recovering from an eating disorder? If not, I would think that there would be a demand for that in your area. Maybe a doc or therapist would help you get one started. You can't be the only person dealing with the after effects of an eating disorder. You have a lot to offer.

Perhaps kids could benefit from all your experience....maybe you could volunteer at a school. You seem like such a caring, dear young person. I know this doesn't take away pain and icky sensations, but it does distract, and often distraction is the only way to cope with pain or other negative things we need to deal with.

Your case is complex and getting and providing peer support could be very valuable. Take time, a lot of time to think things thru.