Xie...

So great to see you post! I know what you mean about the encyclopedias...we couldn't sell them at the church rummage sale and had to beg Good Will to take them. Maybe a retirement home with a library? What you are having to do is so hard....wish I could be there to help you.
I'm so sorry to hear that your friend died and 55 is waay too young.
I think you're smart to try doing at least one thing each day..it gives you a real feeling of accomplishment.
Remember that we are all here for you dear lady.