((((((Deb)))))),
Does this mean that you don't have disability insurance coverage?? Or you do, but it's lousy??
I don't want to say "it's a good thing" -- 'cause I'm sure you don't think it is. But, with the bad flare up and the kind of work that you do, isn't it better (really) to not be working 'til you get the pain monster back in his cage??
Don't 'things' always seem to happen when your money is tight and you're counting on the next check... I used to swear The Universe could tell when my wallet was empty. Wouldn't it be great if we could get a sort of "people insurance" -- insurance that would bring people in to do our job for a very-very-very low fee until we got back on our feet
You've had two surgeries in just a short time and I'm sure the job isn't helping with the recovery (other than financially

).
I hope you get your balance back SOON. And get the pain monster to realize that he's been EVICTED and he ain't living here anymore.
BIG HUGS.
Barb