Thankyou for your welcomes! Actually, I dont feel that my attitude is all that good. I spend days in funks, depression, anxiety, etc. But I guess we all do what we have to do, and the most important thing I have right now to do is raise my kiddos. The attitude bleeds over to them, ya know? Hubby tells me that its OK to laugh when you really wanna just sit down and cry. He "allows" me one pitty party per day, cause he knows its stressful just keeping a good face for the kids.

I feel lucky in the fact that many a day, we have the "pitty party" together, after the kiddos have gone to bed. I have a great support system in place, best friend, sister-in-law, hubby, kiddos, mother and father, and my father-in-law. But it is just such a relief to have this community as well, cause let's face it, I know they care, and their with me every step of the way, but there's really no way they can understand on a day to day basis what its like living with ACM, myofascial pain, chronic fatigue, anxiety, and the general feeling that I'm basically failing as a mother. (They tell me I'm not, but they dont have to deal with a 4 year old wanting to walk down to the park, but being the one having to say, "Sorry, but mama doesnt feel like it today", "Sorry mama has a bad headache today", "Sorry, mama's hurting today", "Sorry mama can read you a story because I cant see the words", and all the other things that go along with all of this. *sighs*

See, told ya, bad attitude LOL