Just saw this thread bumped up and wanted to post and thank everyone for the help and support. Over the past few months I have done well and had a positive attitude and was cheerful. But with the cold I am feeling worse and I now am depressed and the depression is just worsening.

I feel so alone and deserted. I live in my room for the most part. I have no life, I do next to nothing and I am always crying. I feel like I just lay in bed and rot. All I know is pain, I can barely walk or do anything. What is there to live for?! I mean, I am not suicidal at all, it is just the pain wearing on me. I feel lifeless.

By the way, yes- I did tell the friend what I am going through. She apologized profusely and we are even better friends at this time.

I have been crying just trying to write this, it is just so difficult to live anymore. I have been trying to go on with life and was doing fairly well with it, but it is now a different story.

Thanks for listening.