hi i to am struggling with this loss. my dad died jan 24, 2007. i do not have any ideal how to deal with this. that is why i have came here. i to am searching for answers. i feel as if my entire world has ended. i am 40 years old, married, have a 15 year old son, a brother and sister, and my mom is living with me now. with this many people around me i can not figure out why i feel so alone. my dad died with copd. i watched for almost a month as he struggled to breathe. he became like a stranger near the end. withouot the right amount of oxygen he begin to be out in left field. i was there the night he passed on. it has been almost a year and each night i close my eyes i not only hear his last breath i also see it. mediciene does not help with the sleep issue.