my father died on jan. 24, 2007. he died with copd. for those of you who does not know what this disease is, the best way thaT I CAN DESCRIBE IT IS YOUR BODY SUFFICATES. i had to watch as he struggled for breath for almost a month. it was very hard to do. me mom, brother, sister and i were all with him when the time came for him to go. it has been almost a year since that happened and yet each night when i lay down i not only hear him taking his last breath but i also see him. i have tried everything that i know of to ease this pain, but nothing seems to work. i still cry myself to sleep alot. i have lost alot of relatives and friends in my life time but it has never effected me like this. i do not know which way to turn. i pray to no relief. i know that god hears me but somehow my prayers are not answered. i am told it will take time to get over this, but it already seems like a million years ago. if anyone can shed some enlightment on this subject i would be most greatful.