i know what you are going through. he was in hospice. it is a very nice place to put your loved ones. we do attend the counsiling sessions. i am having a hard time today because it is the annual memorial service for the hospice families. i made his quilt block. i cross stitched his dates and a few of his favorite things, then i framed it with flannel material. he loved wearing flannel shirts. i think i cried a million tears for each stitch. i wish for peace and heart healing powers for christmas this year. i pray each night for these things . i will not ever think that god does not care. in time we will be able to cope, but when that time comes one does not know.