I don't know what nightmare you had to live through Sunnyside but we understand slipping in and out of reality. Sometimes our lives are too horrible to remember, to painful to think about....sometimes they come crashing back when we least expect it. I'm sorry... We are here for you and you can do this. I read that you have a T and I assume he/she is working with meds. for you. I don't need to tell you that it isn't going to be easy but you are worth it! Hang tough.