Jeffn I didn't mean to sound sad and lonely not sad lonely and desperate - it is the kind of loneliness of not having any people around that are of the same PCS!! The Xmas thing is so tiring - shopping rellies and all that kind of stuff - like too little time and energy to do what you want to do etc. And don't ask me to bake cookies! Following recipes is not something I am good at - I can never remember what I have put in the bowl - I have made a system of putting things away immediately after adding them but there have been some strange things cooked in my kitchen at times!! Lynlee