Sall you are right------we are on a sinking boat don't know to go down with it or fight to stay on top. Today I was supposed to go to a 75th birthday party with my daughter and son-in-law but the pains I had today and the emotional drained body I couldn't go. Now I am wondering which is worse going feeling they way I did or being home alone and really feeling like the bottom has fell out. I just don't know what to do anymore. ---------Joyce-----------