Hi Mari,

I hope things are better for you right now, I read a little about how your work friend is doing so rough right now and how you're just not wanting to deal with some stuff, I can really appreciate that feeling. Sometimes even just showeing is more effort then I can muster.

Been a rough spread of days, we did see his p-doc and she raised his medication that I knew had to happen and he was doing great until yesterday, he got so agitated and just into so much trouble. He put some duct tape rolled up in a ball into my hair when I wasn't expecting it so I ended up losing some hair unfortunately. He was angry we wouldn't give him any sugar free ice cream, needless to say we won't be buying it anymore.

He made a huge mess in the bedroom, mom brought over a bag of clothes someone from work gave her and he fit into about half of them, but obsessed on the other half and unfolded them after we'd folded them all twice. I get so exhausted with this kid, no one should have to live like this with such chaos in their live, but doing it with BP II on top of his DX? Ugh, I am really ready to just give in and send him packing to a group home and move out of this nice place and just exist somewhere in peace.

But the kicker is there are no group homes in our area that will take him. I just hate this situation. He broke a vase from my childhood last week along with a keepsake mom had bought in Mexico twenty years ago...I just hate that my stuff can't sit in tubs and be LEFT ALONE, I have NO possessions that are safe...so I have had a real sad week. Just hate sharing sad and depressing stuff, but that's what's happening. I wish he could learn to repsect other people's stuff, but I don't see that happening.

I hope everyone understands I think about you all every day, I come and read, but I just can't post, I haven't been able to for a couple weeks and I know you all think about me too, so I am sorry if I worried you, but I just hate posting about the sad stuff. Take care everyone, I think of you all fondly and wish you lots of luck in your days.