Hi Ada,
I know your heartache, it is tough everyday missing our loved one, but knowing how they were such a part of holiday and family is a terriable heavy heart.
I try to keep busy, I have Lexapro to help keep me more focused, and it helps.
But I just ache to hold my daughter, I still have not gone through her things, the time never seems right.

If you go back home will it be for the holiday or just after, I know how your grandsons so love you.
I have the family, the kids and grandson, but I think of the holiday pictures and an empty spot, someone very missing and it hurts so very bad. I try to be so strong in the front of family.

My thoughts are always turning to you with concern as I know the hurt and wish there was something that helped us. Those say time,.....I don;t know, I can not even imagine everyday without hearing her voice, seeing here.
So I know how much Bill is missed by you.

You will do what is right for Bill and you. Weigh your options and make a list of options and "feel" which is a good feeling.

My love to you, hugs,
dianne