Hi Isobelle *love that name* and Welcome to NT.
I have a little anxiety myself, but you have really had a rough time of it.
Your past has alot of sadness in it. Hope you know that wer'e glad your'e w/us and hope that this board can be of help to you.
Who knows?? We may even get you to laugh.. Some of the members here are a little goofy and we tend to have a little fun once in a while. Feel free to join in....

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Welcome to you too delorisann~ In case you haven't already done so, maybe you would like to start a thread and intro yourself.. That way more people would see it.
Sorry for all you are going through.. That sounds really tough, but you've come to the right place for support and friendship. take care and keep us posted.