been thinking about you guys.
been making an effort
keep things going
everywhere
head heart body and spirit
hurt angry sad and spent.
hearing pain that will not relent.
personal medical emotional stress
off the scales and off camber
in a minute i'll be ok see
and back to substances
dance in the bathroom
and sleep, sweet sleep
my best refuge
from my demons and plague
The Refuge of Physical Death
is not forgotten but not sought
so i am rooted in life this time
tho a scarce presence in it
so a scarce present in me
see, i'm ok now... sorta. start to post again, i'll trip over my thinking about what thread to answer and feelings and i'll get all
crunkled up again. yes, somewhere between
crumpled and
crinkled, so there sue me.
today
leave you with another
and a toadism
((( spare ))) for the room
crying ~ waves ~ trying