A lot of times now I say to myself...I love God...I trust God and Love wins....I try not to dwell in the negative pull of bipolar. The negative pull still wins right now but saying those thoughts are powerful.
I don't know when things will let up for you...but eventually when you cycle out they will....guard yourself with all your might...stay away from negative situations...if your parents try to nurture you, take it with open arms. try not to worry about tomorrow....try to get a handle on the past...conserve mental energy...
Love
Bobby