You are both right.

I am dreading this holiday.

Soon I will go home to see my family. My aunt who has had breast cancer for the last 9 years and has been a rock and an inspiration has taken a turn for the worse the last couple of weeks.

It could be her last Christmas and it makes me so sad to think that.

Ever since I can remember during the holidays she had the most beautiful nativity set I have ever seen. It was handmade and one of a kind. I have always loved it.

Last year for Christmas she found the person who made it and had one made for me and my husband.

Last night I put it up and was mixed with feelings of deep sadness for my aunt and the beauty of what Christmas really means.

I will make this the best Christmas ever for my aunt and my family.