i am so sorry that you are hurting..i know exactly how you feel..this is my second christmas without david and it hurts oh so much..the deep depression makes my pain even greater--which doesn't help things--- i haven't even started shopping yet or put up any decorations..everything brings back memories...even though they are good memories--they get me so upset and lead to another mental breakdown...our losses are still too new to not feel the way we do..we are still so raw from losing the ones we love more than anything or anybody else in this world...my family is pretty much all gone so there is no real support system for me there...my friends and my therapist can only do so much...and of course my friends at b/t...but i don't want to burden everyone with my problems...lost most of my friends by doing that..
billie..write to me anytime you feel like venting or just chatting..i will be there for you like you have been there for me ...
best wishes to all--have a peaceful night---moonstar (linda)