A Vegal Nerve Stimulator is an implant that was first used for epselepsy and now used for depression.

I just got back from my Drs. office. The man is one of my best friends and it's funny or not, he thinks this is just a temporary thing. He says it might be good for me to have a break from it. I didn't have the heart to tell him I was done with it.

I told my nurse that if they hadn't got me in I was going to go to the ER to have it turned off. Her words were," they wouldn't know what it was much less how to turn it off." LOL When I told my Dr. the same thing, he said, " they wouldn't know how to turn it off. Kind of shows you how much faith they have in this hospital here. I sure don't have any.

Like I told my Dr. I feel really insecure that there is no way for me to turn the thing off except to use these magnets to turn it off while it is over the box over the chest. The magnet is so heavy that it won't even stay on the area without supergluing it.

I wouldn't recommend the VNS to anyone now. I feel bad in a way because I have people that are watching me with it for themselves or family. I hated to let them down though.

I'm very down over this but I am already drained from what I went through this whole week with the problems with the VNS.

It made my acid reflux worse, my constipation worse, P. A's worse, stress worse, you name it.

Thanks all of you for the support. I really appreciate all of you.

Ada