Ada I'm so sorry that you are having these symptoms and decided to have it turned off. I wish you had some improvement with it. It was supposed to be my miracle and nothing. Mine was turned off on Tuesday because I can't stand it on my throat with this cold I have which I found out today turned into pneumonia. And that's my works fault. I'm so afraid of taking off for fear of being fired I went in with a fever of 101. Then my memory failed me again and I forgot to buy gas and ran out when we were having an ice storm and had to walk 5 blocks. Did they appreciate it? Not one bit. Told me to sit in the back workstation so I don't spread germs around. But I didn't mind it one bit because I didn't have to face any one.

I know the holidays are hard on you Ada missing Bill but I'm glad you have some people around you. I saw my pdoc on Tuesday and told her I'm not sure if I'm having it turned back on. I told her I'd make a decision one way or another after the holidays. I just have to get through the next couple weeks without hurting myself and maybe that will be a big enough accomplishment that I can feel proud of myself and stop looking at the ground so much I walk into walls. But the holidays are bearing down, the carols are playing and the stockings are empty.