I just had an idea - what would you be like at present on a tandem bike - your balance wouldn't have to be perfect and you could enjoy the outing. I don't think that I am a victim. I have always had the idea in my head that what you do and what happens in the first 6 months seems to play a big part in your recovery. i.e. if you are diagnosed asap and rest. I spent my first 6 months fighting for somebody to believe me and trying to carry on working full time etc - I think this has somehow damaged my sub concious. As this for me seems to be such a long process (6+ years) I have had to make the most of the "now" in order to have some enjoyment out of life. Some days I do wake up feeling normal - and it is just bliss - once I have actually clicked what is different. I have to learn to hang onto that feeling now!

Lynlee