dear Idealist
I am so sorry that the health issues are still unresolved but yes, I would agree that it may be time to take a break from striving to find the answer for a while and see if maybe it doesnt yet come, with an avenue for healing ........ this doesnt mean you will never see another doctor, nor that you shouldnt pursue the specialist your doc is recommending...just that I can fully understand where you are coming from on this, and agree.

as to those who are suggesting this means your illness is not as severe I pray that God would just give you the ability to move forward despite such an unkind and insensitive response. I have long since learned I cant live my life based on the opinion of anyone other than God...as long as I know I am walking in honesty with Him, that is truly all that matters to me.

Illness comes at us from many sources, Idealist and so does healing. And sometimes we just need to be able to breathe and stop a cycle of searching in vain for answers, and listen quietly. God directed me to real solutions for my son in just such a way, so I feel deep empathy and understanding for you on this.

I am praying for you
May His peace and comfort be with you, and His guidance and direction in ALL things be clear to you

Follow His Voice above all others and you will be on the right path.

Cheri