Oh my goodness, you must be feeling so sh... PCS McGee would have a better expression to describe it. You will be feeling like you can't do/go through this again. The last time I did it - couple of months ago I think, I was lying there with a massive headache in tears - I understand!. Are you able to just shut you yourself in a dark room to sleep for a few days and have somebody in to look after your Dad. The only thing that I found helped was morphine once when I was in hospital - only 3 days of it but what a difference. My thoughts are with you. Hugs.

Lynlee