hmmmmmm I bet I don't make a bit of sense. That's OK. I rarely do. I don't have enough to spread, do ?
I was a heavy smoker for 42 years and knew I couldn't quit ... I didn't really want to ... I loved every cigarette I lit. Then I was looking at all the hospital stays for that brain tumor including the long stay, wired in the bed for the VEEG ..... yikes.

Honest - I'm trying to talk about how I hang on some times when I think maybe I just cant.

The standard methods of quitting smoking didn't make sense to me but I was able to quit by just telling myself to "wait two hours and I could have one". And I just kept plugging on with other things. When I felt like I had to have that "two hour" smoke I promised myself one "the next morning". The next morning I said, to myself, that I was could have one just as soon as I did yadda yadda.

Did I make ANY sense? When I want something , something wrong, I promise myself I can have it, but I just have to wait.

So Sunnyside just keep waiting, keep plugging along
I wish I could give you candy cigarettes