I hope that things have improved for you now - it is not sounding good, I think you need somebody in to look after you - sooner rather than later. Can you call on a friend??

I understand about your mother and Christmas - I have just been through that and it is very sad, but just think she wouldn't be wanting you to be so upset about her not being here with you. I am sure that your Dad will be wanting you to call for help, I think it is time to be worrying about you, getting help for yourself and allowing yourself to cry for you alone!

Please get help

Lynlee