(((Barbara))) It hasn't been that long since he died...Christmas was a distraction and now that it's behind you that wave of grief has swept over you again. It's not uncommon...it takes time, sometimes it takes a long time to go thru that process of grieving. We have all seen how strong you are..so hug yourself from all of us and lower your expectations. It takes as long as it takes.

I have no clue what normal is. *grin