Lori - the counseller thing - I fought it - the usual thoughts "I don't need this, there is nothing wrong with the way that I think, I already know everything and nobody is going to interfere with my brain" - she actually threatened to fire me at one stage. She did convince me in the end that I was not nice to myself - AND never had been!!!! And lots more Though she did indirectly get me to accept the condition she was trying to work on the no cure part as well. I think that was more about not wasting the precious energy I have on hoping etc.

Jeffn - so very sorry to hear about your friend - nothing prepares you for the sadness - it is now 6 years since my best friend died and I still miss her so much - every now and then I find a smile on my face remembering some of the crazy things we used to do.

Shrek - what happened to you and how much have you recovered?

Lynlee